its interesting how we, rather i,perceive others around me and also the imp of their presence in my life..how much do people matter to me???a self confessed loner who needs people by her side never the less..funny eh...

trains...

yes..exactly..in the past week or so i think i must have spent like three days in the train..and yes..it gave me wat it always offers me without question..time to think..lots of time..all to myself..jus lyin down in that bed..lookin out of the window(which held only a partial view of the outside world) rain..with the water seepin down making ripples.tiny faint ones...crawlin till the end of time..the faint GMS playin right in the centre of my head(earphones..duh)..it was bliss..i am the craver of lone time..and i loved every minute of that journey..away from everyone..it was this crazy feelin of elated ecstacy and i used every minute of it..
the thoughts that went through my head were crazy..one time thinkin of my future..my career(will i actually have to take up that job as the guard?) and at other times thinkin of my parents..my life back in college and how different it is at home..thoughts and more thoughts developing into feelings and emotions..felt like writing then and there..there was so much in those thoughts that i didnt wanna lose when i got back to civilization(like right now).
its this wierd feelin of losin my thoughts and this whole orientation of mind which might not lead to anything and still kind of disturbs me..
i take my train journeys as this beautiful part of my life experiences...i would never trade them for ever..the journey from delhi to manipal is one thing ill never forget..i have been doin it like every year for the past three years..its like this only connection between the two lives that i lead..and starting from one i almost always have to mentally prepare myself for the comin destination..from being a destitute of one kind to the other..being in one state of mind and living and then shiftin to the other..anticipating new developments and jus a whole new world..a different one each time from the last time i left it...
i really dont know how to wrap up these thoughts so ill jus let them be..later