there is this serenity that comes up these days when i see the one thing that in my BRAIN i dont really wanna see..not givin much importance to the heart really..u must have noticed i dont really introduce my stuff..the stuff that i write i meant..but thats okay..u should understand..sitting here in the hostel room staring at the fan in its constant incessant motion i realise..that even in the life tenure of this fan i am jus a temporary phase..me as an entity is a passing phase..very surprisingly i am not unhappy with that small but significant discovery..
i have started reading like crazy..really.these days thats the only thing that seems to hit me..becom so stone hearted otherwise..highly mechanical..so its books..my nirvana as always..i read this awesom book that i wanna reccomend to whoever..the kite runner..awesom sweet book..its intense and after reading that the whole concept about intensity has metamorphosed.its like talking to someone when u feel like..it tells u stuff that u rally never knew and glad to hear it come up..learn wit every sentence..
there are these moments in life u know when u feel u have had enough and seen enough..dealt wit enough to last a life time..get bugged wit it all..but one needs to understand that there is such thing as hope..our only string to the future..the thin frail HOPE...its interesting cause jus like love even hope is jus a ..ummm..wat to call it..result of human experiences..that ya well keeps u going..hope to see a new day..hope to see the other side of the world..hope to get stuff right wit your family..hope to have a placid existence..hope that everything is gonna be right sometime..but sometimes hope does not deliver and then u r left alone(as always)
u know i play wit that power above..negotiate my fate...like..if this ball goes in the basket then this will happen..otherwise..well let it be types.the interesting part is if it doesnt happen i keep goin..keep throwing the ball..its nice to be negotiating wit Him.
that shuld be it i guess..later

head is too blank to write anything..but still just that...suddenly seem to b void of any opinion....will blog next time..when i have some opinion of something and when i am feeling better...happier..but then..jus aa line of thought..nobody is happy..they are all jus busy.ill explain in my next blog

and so life jus goes on..you know..people..some arbid ones..some close ones..close..ahem..dont really know wat that is..but still would like to believe i care for them..cause isnt that wat life is all about??caring and havin close ones to lose and fuckin your head in the end..makin u see heaven sometimes and then jus simply glidin past never to turn around and look at u again...where am i goin??thats one intriguing thing..you never know where u headed..i seem to b jus crusing through wat ever life has got to offer..cause there is nothin better than jus sittin back and enjoyin wat comes your way..shitty os otherwise..love fuck thats a stupidest fuckin thing man ever came up wit..there seems to b no love amongst animals dude..think about it..its all about caring..no love its us humans who would for our fuckin convenience would like to call it love..but its all man made in the end,some bull shit man's ego fulfilling emotion..pathetic..i dont believe in it..not anymore..used to till a while back..when i suddenly realised how circumstances take over this apparently strong emotion so conveniently..its like this leaf in the wind..totally dependent on the direction and the presence of winds..it flies..circles..high..round and round..and then when the wind ceases to exist..it jus drops..down to mother fuckin earth..not to rise again..till ya when the next wind comes..wierd..but true..all true things are always wierd..unbelieving..the lie always seem to b the truth..and u ju flow wit it..cruise as i said..think..goodnite.