jus a thot..i think all love s got stages..and its wierd the way it follows..
1) interest
2)likeness
3)obsession
4)love
5)loss of interest
6)repulsion
and then there is a time, a platform where the two meet but there is nothin except memories..and sometimes they are bad and sometimes they are beautiful..but there is always a lingerin soft corner..
but one moves on..yeah?
Friday, October 31, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
rainbow
its not really about rainbow here..but its somewher close..its interesting how a rainbow can be used to mark the end of the rain..sadness as also to indicate happiness and hope..so yeah needless to say i wouldn mind seeing a rainbow..god why do i always go off track?? no idea..
past few months have been a rainbow of sorts for me. its like i am leading someone else s life with no real emotions and feelings passing through me. i am experiencing so many things that it all feels like i am cruising.. at a very high speed through rough and placid waters. and it feels awesom. i feel good.
all my life i have dreamed of travelling.. to far off places and finaly i feel like i am doing that. i am in glasgow. and i actually find myself budgeting for trip for a roadtrip through europe. fun huh..it is. jus thinking about it gives me the goosebumps. and its awesom.
glasgow is culture..a plethora of different cultures and nationality..meeting a variety of people everyday..mostly greeks but they are fun people so its cool and nigerians and ukrainians and russians and..a whole gamut of people.
apart from that..there is me..i feel like one of those shots of movies where there is one guy in the centre and everyone is moving around him with an amzin speed. yeah i am the guy in the centre..lost??no no..i am okay..not lost really..i am good. in hold of my senses and ma wants..holdin my roots tightly, not gonna let go of that..so even if there are several shots of absynthe and stuff thrown in here and there..its okay..coz me not flyin off..he he..god i really can talk to myself huh..
i am gonna write a more objective blog sometime..full with pictures and stuff but thats gonna be later.
for now..can i crib please..coz i mostly blog when i have to crib big time,and there is no human ear anywher close..he he..so here goes..
there is already a guy who likes me..i have kissed him but i have told him i dont like him..and he is okay wit the idea . he said he will let go of me willingly if i start likin someone else..funny huh..i think so too..but the kisses are good...god!!!
and then there is this other guy who likes me too...but then again i dont like him..not much as a prospect anyway..so there
now wats fuckin my head in the whole thing is(jus when u were beginning to think.wats there to crib in this?) that feel like i need an anchor in my life..not boastin but there have been so many guys who like me..but jus for once i wanna fall for someone..and not have him beggin for a relationship..if u know what i mean..like..when will it happen that even i find the guy irresistible who finds me irrisistible??is that gonna take a real long time??coz its been ages since that happened..is this wrong?? i am tired of being sweet to guys who end up liking me..and even thinkin of havin a relationship wit them jus so they dont get fucked up or depressed or the like..
hope u gettin the point..dont think so,but thats okay..jus writing this is clearin my head so thats cool..think i have written too much..laterssssss
past few months have been a rainbow of sorts for me. its like i am leading someone else s life with no real emotions and feelings passing through me. i am experiencing so many things that it all feels like i am cruising.. at a very high speed through rough and placid waters. and it feels awesom. i feel good.
all my life i have dreamed of travelling.. to far off places and finaly i feel like i am doing that. i am in glasgow. and i actually find myself budgeting for trip for a roadtrip through europe. fun huh..it is. jus thinking about it gives me the goosebumps. and its awesom.
glasgow is culture..a plethora of different cultures and nationality..meeting a variety of people everyday..mostly greeks but they are fun people so its cool and nigerians and ukrainians and russians and..a whole gamut of people.
apart from that..there is me..i feel like one of those shots of movies where there is one guy in the centre and everyone is moving around him with an amzin speed. yeah i am the guy in the centre..lost??no no..i am okay..not lost really..i am good. in hold of my senses and ma wants..holdin my roots tightly, not gonna let go of that..so even if there are several shots of absynthe and stuff thrown in here and there..its okay..coz me not flyin off..he he..god i really can talk to myself huh..
i am gonna write a more objective blog sometime..full with pictures and stuff but thats gonna be later.
for now..can i crib please..coz i mostly blog when i have to crib big time,and there is no human ear anywher close..he he..so here goes..
there is already a guy who likes me..i have kissed him but i have told him i dont like him..and he is okay wit the idea . he said he will let go of me willingly if i start likin someone else..funny huh..i think so too..but the kisses are good...god!!!
and then there is this other guy who likes me too...but then again i dont like him..not much as a prospect anyway..so there
now wats fuckin my head in the whole thing is(jus when u were beginning to think.wats there to crib in this?) that feel like i need an anchor in my life..not boastin but there have been so many guys who like me..but jus for once i wanna fall for someone..and not have him beggin for a relationship..if u know what i mean..like..when will it happen that even i find the guy irresistible who finds me irrisistible??is that gonna take a real long time??coz its been ages since that happened..is this wrong?? i am tired of being sweet to guys who end up liking me..and even thinkin of havin a relationship wit them jus so they dont get fucked up or depressed or the like..
hope u gettin the point..dont think so,but thats okay..jus writing this is clearin my head so thats cool..think i have written too much..laterssssss
Monday, March 24, 2008
long weekend
..he he he..i am just writing this for the heck of telling u guys how lazy could i get.. i had like a three days off..long weekend off because of good friday and holi and all that...yeah i made plans..well lets see.. first on the list was Goa..the unbeatable destination for ultimate nirvana..THE getaway.. but yeah..TEN hourse away..it got struck out from my " lets go" list at the very beginning..then came Gokarana..damn do i miss that place..but what will i go there and do alone???so nah..not there either..second casuality..the coorg...i would have needed an umbrella ,a wind cheater and a nice romantic company to go there with..and i was lacking in all these..so that too was a goner...the list went on..and then..ha..at the end of the awesom three days..i was still in the bed..lazying away...without a shower..and trust me that was bliss too..so even though i am an "OUTDOORS" person...chilling at home i realised is not that bad after all..damn..only if i had a television..
and guess wat me thinks arun is like the best company for all this lazying..he considers it against his relegion to wake up anyone who is sleeping..and that suits me just fine...and then he will actually get me anything i want from the market so i get home delivery of smokes...coke...and what not...yeah yeah..i know..basically..three days..beautiful and awesom..peaceful..thank you audience...latersssss
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
hey.. thought its imerative that i write today..comes after a long time.. but yeah..here right now.. days crawl and months seem to just fly by..feels like that happens all the time..
i am in my first job..quite settled in( if not completely) and this feels good.. to be answerable to only yourself.. the responsibility of it all.. its exhilirating.. i mean seriously.. ill tell you what comes in the package..i am living with three of my friends and so managing the house, paying the rent and getting food..paying elctricity bills..washing clothes..man i seem to be doing it all and it feels awesom... apart from that coming to work every day and handling that.. i finally feel like i have come of age.. and when there is no one really to handle the emotonal part of u.. u really realise what it is to HANDLE everything all by yourself... but trust me for once i am not complaining.
i do miss the old times though..that was fun..and i was myself in a ot of ways.. hate becoming what i am becoming today.. but i guess its a part of the whole thing.. wat say.. i need to push for home now so ill see you later..
i am in my first job..quite settled in( if not completely) and this feels good.. to be answerable to only yourself.. the responsibility of it all.. its exhilirating.. i mean seriously.. ill tell you what comes in the package..i am living with three of my friends and so managing the house, paying the rent and getting food..paying elctricity bills..washing clothes..man i seem to be doing it all and it feels awesom... apart from that coming to work every day and handling that.. i finally feel like i have come of age.. and when there is no one really to handle the emotonal part of u.. u really realise what it is to HANDLE everything all by yourself... but trust me for once i am not complaining.
i do miss the old times though..that was fun..and i was myself in a ot of ways.. hate becoming what i am becoming today.. but i guess its a part of the whole thing.. wat say.. i need to push for home now so ill see you later..
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