long time..but hey..suddenly i felt myself falling through this dark tunnel..this awesom pit..dark and suffocating..last few weeks have been damn smooth for me..i get up in the mornin ..go for my exams(yes i have exams in my life also)come back sleep..go to the library at four then come back..fuck around and well sleep again..there is this friend of mine..had started to get close..me and her..she spoke to me about her problems..all night long..felt good..and then i gave her the advice that probably she shoul stop seeing her guy for a while cause anyways he was giving her a lot of problems..told her that she should try spending time wit her friends and change her routine a bit..and well she did.but thats the catch..she got back to her old friends who she had spaced out wit over the months..but one of her friends used to be my close friend too..i should be feelin good about it..but suddenly i feel empty..left out..wierd..can make myself be happy about the whole thing..but for wat joy??
i spend most of my time in my room now..iteels good..all by myself.spend time wit myself and my hippo..(my hippo by the way is my lifeline:its this yellow stuffed sweetheart)....its good.