there is this serenity that comes up these days when i see the one thing that in my BRAIN i dont really wanna see..not givin much importance to the heart really..u must have noticed i dont really introduce my stuff..the stuff that i write i meant..but thats okay..u should understand..sitting here in the hostel room staring at the fan in its constant incessant motion i realise..that even in the life tenure of this fan i am jus a temporary phase..me as an entity is a passing phase..very surprisingly i am not unhappy with that small but significant discovery..
i have started reading like crazy..really.these days thats the only thing that seems to hit me..becom so stone hearted otherwise..highly mechanical..so its books..my nirvana as always..i read this awesom book that i wanna reccomend to whoever..the kite runner..awesom sweet book..its intense and after reading that the whole concept about intensity has metamorphosed.its like talking to someone when u feel like..it tells u stuff that u rally never knew and glad to hear it come up..learn wit every sentence..
there are these moments in life u know when u feel u have had enough and seen enough..dealt wit enough to last a life time..get bugged wit it all..but one needs to understand that there is such thing as hope..our only string to the future..the thin frail HOPE...its interesting cause jus like love even hope is jus a ..ummm..wat to call it..result of human experiences..that ya well keeps u going..hope to see a new day..hope to see the other side of the world..hope to get stuff right wit your family..hope to have a placid existence..hope that everything is gonna be right sometime..but sometimes hope does not deliver and then u r left alone(as always)
u know i play wit that power above..negotiate my fate...like..if this ball goes in the basket then this will happen..otherwise..well let it be types.the interesting part is if it doesnt happen i keep goin..keep throwing the ball..its nice to be negotiating wit Him.
that shuld be it i guess..later